Anyhow, since it was a very cold but very sunny morning, I decided to go do a little shopping. I was going to run out to Mall 205, which is a nice walk from my house, but I hate that place. I suppose I hate all malls, but this one, starting with the sad fact that it’s named after a highway, is especially nasty in my opinion. For those of you who have never been, it’s several acres of fat, mostly white people who channel their apparent anger into the way they command their oversized vehicles. If you are walking into or out of Mall 205 or, worse, riding a bicycle, get your ass out of the way.
So as I put the key into the door as I was leaving, standing there on my front porch it occurred to me that since I had no emergencies to tend to, why not take the train out to the Target store that sits on the edge of a big shopping spread close to the airport?
The mountains were out on full display. A jet with the word Continental painted on its tail sailed overhead, and I thought, Houston. The train glided almost silently along the tracks. Out the window, slightly below it, cars crawled along and they too were blessedly silent. My visit to Target began as it almost always does. I ordered nachos with cheese and jalapenos and sat on a stool, stuffing my mouth with garbage and looking out across the parking lot, where thousands of cars caught and gave back the rays of sunlight.
After the nachos, I wandered around a bit. I looked at the cloth-covered boxes for storing things and I looked at the selection of fancy skillets and I spent a while looking at the lights. Then, I wandered over to the men’s section to look for the main item I was shopping for – long underwear. The underwear section makes me horny. That’s really all there is to it. All that flesh, all those nice curves and hidden treasures, photographed. I’ve wondered, since a very young age, what goes through the minds of those holding the cameras and what goes through the minds of those holding onto other commodities. It’s a question I never tire of pondering.
And, as it always has, visits to the underwear section have something of a lasting impact. For a certain period of time, every male being I encounter after leaving that particular section is exactly the person I’ve dreamed of for decades. It’s the oddest thing, but it’s kind of fun, being flooded by fantasies that drove me to distraction as a hormone-addled teenager and that drive me to distraction still even though I have perhaps arrived in a demographic one could maybe label “dirty old man.” I loved crotch shots then and I love them now.
Which brings me to the checkout line. I placed my items on the belt. The attractive checker (everyone is attractive by that point) removed each of the two packages containing the long underwear, the shaving cream and razors and the strand of lights and looked at each, it seemed to me, with careful consideration. Then another attractive man (everyone is attractive by that point) came up behind me. I’d say he was 38 or so, really short hair, smoky eyes that were either deep green or brown, sweatshirt, jacket, jeans. He had a cart overflowing with shit, it being the season and all, and the first thing he put on the belt was a rectangular box, the top of which was a cellophane window. And the words, in big letters, on the side that was facing me: The Electronic Ball Basher. A toy, to be sure, I thought, and I thanked the clerk and he handed me my bag and I left.
